I'm kindof feeling better, I just have low-self-esteem.
Actually I'm kindof feeling unwanted, I don't know...maybe I'm thinking too much into things. I need something to do to take my mind off of things, I guess I won't feel so sad anymore...I hope.
I think that I should go back to writing stupid love songs that way I can at least pretend to be happy, but secretly I cry alone in my room most nights... que drama. Perhaps I should just try to enjoy myself as I very much doubt I'll get a second life.
Something has changed thought. I want things to go back to how they were before when I was in a good mood. I have to ruin everything and now I don't think I can get that back, no. *tear*

I think I shall come back to rant some more, yus.